What Do You Wish To Share?
This week for Wishcasting Wednesday, the lovely Jamie Ridler asks: "What do you wish to share?"
I wish to share my authentic self. The part of me that I so often keep hidden from the world because I am afraid to show who I truly am. But through my moments of truth this week (week 2 of The Joy Diet), I have realized that I no longer want to keep myself hidden. I want to begin to share myself by peeling away that layers and revealing my beautiful inner self.
To illustrate this I want to share a story. I went to an amazing university, got great grades and made it in to my dream law school. During my first year, I grew more and more depressed by being in law school. This was shocking to me because I had dreamed of being a lawyer since I was four. My dreams had come true and I was hating every moment of it. I didn't want to admit this. I had put so much time and money in to becoming a lawyer. How could I not be happy. So I pushed it away. I pretended like it was perfectly normal to be unhappy and blamed it all on the increased stress of law school. What I didn't want to admit was that I didn't want to be a lawyer. My internship in my final year of undergrad had made me see how much I love working with youth. I continued to mentor and work with youth because it sparked a passion in me. But working with youth and doing community and social work was not part of the plan. And so I denied it and continued to make myself unhappy going to law school.
I decided to take this semester off to focus on working and some serious soul searching. I honestly thought I would dig deep and find out that I really wanted to go to finish law school and realize my dream. But I don't. The longer I am away and the deeper I dig, the more I find that I really want to be a therapist/social worker.
I want to share that I no longer want to be a lawyer
I want to share that I picked up my formal withdrawal forms today
I want to share that I want to be a therapist/social worker
I want to share my authentic life
12 comments:
As Ellecubed wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
Thank you so much for sharing your story and your authentic self!
Dawn Snyder says
so, so proud of you and your courage. way to be awesome and inspiring. =)
such a joy to read that. thank you for being authentically you.
Dreamwriter says
As Ellecubed wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
You go girl! Follow that dream!
Lawendula says
Authentic self- so,so important.
Good luck and may your wishes come true!
Steffi says
What you wish for yourself, I wish for you!
Your truth is inspiring!
positively present says
Wow! This is a great post and so brilliantly honest. Thanks for inspiring me to think about what I really want to share too.
Giulietta the Muse says
Hi Ellecubed,
You are brave to walk away from someone else's career idea! Congrats. Just doing that, having that courage shows me you will make a great therapist/social worker! College is all messed up. We try to fit ourselves into existing slots. We squeeze and contort and the result is something quite painful. I wish for you to do what you want from now on!
Giulietta
Julie says
Hi Ellecubed, this is such a brave post, thanks for sharing, may all your wishes come true.
Carmen says
That's okay. My daughter wants to be a lawyer, and many times i have wondered if she will be okay because she is an artist too like yourself very creative but I am ready to say that's okay and i want you to know that as a mommy, i am so sure you don't need to feel alone or bad it is okay. I support you we all do, because we believe in following your bliss and i think you are in our path and you want to be happy and we want you to be happy.
Soul hugs!
Carmen
p.s. remember you are not alone ;-)
p.s. #2 your picture with that adorable hairstyle is superb!!!!
Silky - Expressive Hart says
As Ellecubed wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
It will all unfold! You should visit my soul sister's site: www.betsygutting.com. She was once a lawyer and now does life coaching and went through expressive arts training!
Lissa says
i am going to show your post to a friend of mine. She is in law school and doesn't want to be there!
As Ellecubed wishes for herself, so I wish for her also
City Girl says
As Ellecubed wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
I can so relate to your experience - I had that when I was in grad school, which ultimately made me leave and start law school. Congratulations on the big decisions you just took. Also, for whatever reason, I thought you were a social worker already. :)
Also yay on the blog domain name, and one last thing - canned pumpkin is sold out at my grocery store, but the second they have it, i am SO making pumpkin oatmeal LOL :)